I wanted to say thank you all for your sweet comments, stopping by and saying hi and letting me know you're thinking of me. It means a lot, so thank you.
I experienced a miscarriage in March and as such have not been blogging. Caleb and I found out in mid- February that we were going to be expecting our first child, and while that was very exciting news, it wasn't too long after we found out I was pregnant that I started having concerning signs. I experienced what is referred to as a "threatened miscarriage" for two weeks until the miscarriage proper started and lasted for about five days. It was a long, hard, painful, emotionally and physically draining experience. I then had about two weeks of lightheadedness and neausea as the hormones left my body, soI am just now finally starting to feel totally normal physically. Of course emotionally there are still days when I struggle, and I know the heartache won't just disappear overnight.
So, as such I have really been just doing the bare-bones housekeeping, making sure things are cleaned up and clean clothes for our backs, but I've not had the energy, mental or physical, for much beyond that. In addition, and I share all of this as I would ask your prayers, I am having a hard time finding any joy in my homemaking post this experience. I've wanted children for many years now, and have longed to be a stay at home mom and homemaker, and I think losing this child has drained a lot of the joy I was building in my heart about being a keeper at home. I am totally at peace with knowing that my little one is in heaven with the Lord, but as for me, and the life I am still leading here, I sometmes feel a bit lost and confused through all of this.
Thank you, dear online sisters for always being an encouragement and inspiration for me about being the best homemaker I can be. I know in time I will return to my excitement about this God-ordained role, but for now I covet your prayers, and apologize for my absense on your blogs and my own.
God bless you all and I'll be back sooner rather than later, I do hope. :)